Three days ago, I received an e-mail from a Tai-Chi teacher, obviously written in a state of doubt and despair. Having stumbled over my website, she realized that she could intellectually understand every word but felt unable to connect with the reality behind them. In her struggle for survival she must have lost the connection to her own heart and now felt abandoned in deep sadness and painful longing.
My first intuition was to offer her a session when I would be in Zürich next week, but she insisted that she had to come to Autigny (our home in the french part of Switzerland) for a 5-day individual retreat: Becoming who we really are” . My agenda being full for the following weeks, I could only offer her a five-day-period starting today by sacrificing my week-end. Inspite of my wife’s protest and my own need for the well-planned pause, I felt that I needed to change plans and accommodate her. And so she arrived yesterday in the late afternoon.
With a cup of tea we slowly started to touch the realm which we would be exploring during the days to come. I soon understood that she had been given flashes of the Unique Self in the past but had taken them as not more than useful assets of a good Tai-Chi teacher and spiritual coach. Only now she began to understand “her” Unique Self as the true essence of her Being, as the infinite source of Wisdom and Love whose ever clearer manifestation we may become in the course of a lifetime by surrendering again and again to its greater Power. Once having imbued its Unique taste — so I shared my experience — surrender will always be answered by a wind of grace. And: when at the beginning it may seem difficult to discern ITs tone within the concert of inner voices, we have no choice but to trust and go ahead, learning by the result of our action. I closed our welcome-talk by inviting her to sit down and write an intimate letter to “her” Unique Self describing her intent of becoming its conscious manifestation.
When she turned up this morning for our first session, I was surprised by a beautifully radiating person, filled with immense bliss and joy. Her letter had obviously been answered by abundant grace and it was clear that deep transformation had taken place overnight. Getting up in the morning she felt urged to write down several pages; all the questions she had brought along and many more had been answered.
It was clear that the “work” had been achieved before we had even formally started. Obviously it had been the right time for her to come to Autigny. Also my intuition to spontaneously open the space for her coming had been right — and I still may enjoy a free weekend.
“OM NAMAH SHIVAYA” — I bow to the One — the mantra that is deeply imprinted in my being is resonating in my heart letting me bow in infinite gratitude!